Sunday, 10 November 2013

Crunchtime.

In the next couple of weeks to come, I have one presentation, two term papers, one project spreadsheet and report submission and one final quiz. Following that are two final exams to sit for. I have not really felt so much pressure and as much as I dislike it, burning the midnight oil to get work done might be the way out to meeting deadlines. 

What is my motivation? Why do I work so hard? 

It's perhaps good to re-think and realign. Even though grades and end result do not ultimately matter at the end of the day, the way we work reflects that we are taking the God-given role as students seriously. To study and as with all other Christians, spread the gospel of Jesus Christ. 

I find joy if I think of it this way, rather than to think that grades mean the world and it's only about me, myself and I. Ultimately, it's about God and I hope that fellow Christian students will live out their lives in a godly manner. 

Press on. 

Saturday, 2 November 2013

Hard Choices

You see, all of us can get caught up with work almost all the time and set God aside for another time. Very recently, I have been pondering over the thought of what real godliness is. Does it just happen during bible studies or at church? The answer may be rhetoric, but it is the very resounding 'NO' that is hard to live out. We say no but we don't act likewise. 

I have been trying hard to live out a godly life and do as the bible has told me to. The instructions from Jesus, Paul, Peter, and each bit of what God is telling us to do in the bible–follow Christ and submit wholeheartedly. However, as fallible humans, we do just the opposite. We try to lead godly lives by leaning on our own strength and we say that we are wretched yet we still believe that we can do it. That doesn't make logical sense at all, does it? If it is logical and it works that way, Christ died for nothing. No matter what we are going through, stick with Christ. When faced with hostile remarks, do we fight back and retort? Given my personality, it's especially hard and I'm ever so tempted to give a blunt reply. I tend to refuse to take a step back and conduct myself in a Christ-like manner. That is in stark contrast from what we are told in the bible, isn't it? If it is hard, look to Christ and the bible. 
Beloved, I urge you as sojourners and exiles to abstain from the passions of the flesh, which wage war against your soul. Keep your conduct among the Gentiles honorable, so that when they speak against you as evildoers, they may see your good deeds and glorify God on the day of visitation. (1 Peter 2:11-12)
Finally, all of you, have unity of mind, sympathy, brotherly love, a tender heart, and a humble mind. Do not repay evil for evil or reviling for reviling, but on the contrary, bless, for to this you were called, that you may obtain a blessing. (1 Peter 3:8-9)


Jesus isn't a safe haven that we run to when we need help. He is who we should be with all the time.

Is following Christ easy? Not at all. Before we could do that, we have to put our selfish desires aside. There are so many things out there that draw us away and essentially, the worldly values are not Christ-centered. When conformance equates to being included, we are caught in a dilemma. We want to live apart yet we want to be included. It's a hard choice to make. Choose Christ, choose life. 

Wednesday, 18 September 2013

A story to tell

Recently, I chanced upon a space of someone I personally know on the internet. Behind the face that always carries a smile and so compassionate towards others and an outward expression for the love of God, is a sad past that isn't so far away.

There are many ways that I could relate to that. The loss of someone close, so close. It's never easy.

God is good all the time, I know it and I will live it.

Thanks for the little encouragement. It goes a long long long way for me.

Monday, 19 August 2013

Hungry Ghost? A mere myth.

It's the time of the year again. Singapore, a modern city state, has transformed itself into yet an island with the decades-old tradition of 'public concerts on a budget', and flying ashes around the tightly spaced high-rise apartments in the heartlands. A walk around the neighbourhood and you'll notice food offerings placed along the sidewalks, red candles and smouldering joss sticks standing upright in a line at the border between the concrete pavement and the grass patch, drums filled with ashes, some with an inferno of burning joss papers. It's the hungry ghost festival, or otherwise known as zhong yuan jie. The traditional taoist believers say that it is during this period of time where the gates of hell open and the spirits are free to roam. However, that point differs from one believer to another.

It is perhaps "Asian" or rather "Chinese" to be performing these religious rites at this time of the year. The reasons are simple. They want to appease the spirits so that their families will be kept safe, and hope that these spirits can bring them a windfall by giving them the numbers for the next lottery jackpot. These are greatly practical things to hope for and pray for. Your family kept out of harm's way, and you get lots of money to satisfy all your material wants. How far can these "blessings" go? What are they worth? The answer, conversely, is simple. Your lifetime. That's all. And according to the taoist belief again, you go to hell when you pass on, and require another believer who is still alive to bring you out of it. If you love data and statistics, there are bound to be some who will not make it. Those whose families have no money to hire a priest to perform more rites for your spirit. The more you pay, the better your chances. Your entry to heaven is never guaranteed and is based on how much money you can pay the priest to chant for you.

Take a look around and you'll find groups of Singaporean Chinese not performing these rituals. They are either agnostic, they don't care, or they are of other religious faiths with vastly different set of beliefs. I am a Christian, and I do not practice these rituals even though my family does. It is by God's grace and mercy and love that I have been adopted as one of his own. My promise of salvation has been sealed by the Holy Spirit, God himself. Jesus died for me so I can be free from sin and have eternal life. And I have a relationship with God the Father, whom I can now intimately call Abba. I have a guarantee of being in heaven with God.

What have I done? I did not burn joss papers or lay out food offerings along the sidewalks. All I did was to repent from my sins and believe in God. If you are so concerned about money, is it worth it to be spending so much on something without guarantee? Why not turn to God, for this salvation he is giving is free for all, and all that he asks is for you to recognise your sins, repent from them, and believe in him, the one everlasting loving God.  

Tuesday, 30 July 2013

生老病死

当你读到,或听到“生老病死”这四个字的时候,心里是有怎样的感觉呢?最近我因肠胃感冒而病倒了两天。这两天让我有足够的时间去反省并思考这四个字的意义。因我曾患上了骨痛热症,以发起烧来就让我忐忑不安。心里知道若在患病,后果将会比第一次来得更加严重。

“死”只不过是人生的一部分。我们大家生来什么都没有,只有一身的罪。满满的,无可救药。信了耶稣还害怕死亡吗?口说不怕,心里倒是有点不安。老实说,“死”是件可怕的事情。我不知道我死的时候会是怎样的,也不晓得会有谁来吊丧。在葬礼上牧师会说什么呢?我活出了一个像基督的生活吗?即使我再不自在,在不安,在怕死,我在基督里得着了安慰。

因基督的死和复活我得着永生。虽然我们到了最终还是得面对死亡,但直这是人生中的一段旅程。我们都得经过生老病死的四个阶段。“死”一点也不简单。“永生”是用基督的血换来的。

生老病死。你的看法呢?

Monday, 15 July 2013

Power and Responsibility

Just a few days ago, I have added a new entry to my resume. For AIESEC in NUS, I am now the Finance Director in the Executive Board. Adding on to that are my captaincy status for the USP Badminton team and Evangelistic Events Secretary for Regenerate NUS. Collectively, they all mean that I have lots of power to do a lot of things. With my new role, I am as good as the CFO for AIESEC in NUS. The whole organisation can't really function without me, and I have the authority to make key decisions and steer the whole local committee.

But, with that comes huge responsibilities as well. First and foremost, I have to be responsible as a maturing Christian man. There are bound to be many decisions that I have to make, and I pray hard that I will make the godly decision all the time. Apart from that, I have to fulfil my role as a leader in various departments well. And the bible shall be my guide.

The new semester is going to be one full of new experiences. I'm excited.

Monday, 8 July 2013

Back home.

I'm finally back at home after a long stay away in Europe. It was a good time away I guess. The 2 months away was a trying period for my faith, for I was unable to find a Christian church, let alone a good one, that I could attend. I depended largely on online sermons to keep myself fed, along with the daily bible readings. As much as the online sermons are helpful, it is also important to remember what is a church about. It is about people. If you are alone and plugged in, listening to the same message preached halfway around the world, you are not a church. The fellowship with other Christians makes a church a church. That's the reason why I was rather upset about not being able to find a church in Poland.

I spent a good bulk of my time thinking and reflecting about certain things. I had been harsh with my words a while back and I fully understand that there is no way that I could take those hurtingly cold responses back anymore. All I knew then was that I had to put an end to what we were going through, and it is rather pointless to let it drag on. Looking back, was it worth it? Perhaps. I am happier now. I'm free and I know it.

That aside, it was good to be back in church and swing right back into Sunday school with the little kids. Yes, I'm back with little kids after spending 6 weeks with Polish kids. I'm glad to be back.

Monday, 20 May 2013

Away from home

It has been just more than a week since I left home for Europe. It's a good time to be away from Singapore I guess. I needed time to be away by myself and Poland has been great so far. I've had lots of time to think about things, to meet new friends, while still being me and holding on to what I believe in.  I realise no matter where I am, some parts of me do not change. I go straight to the point and what I want to say is written all over my face. Still as tactless as before too. This is me, I'm comfortably being myself here.

On another note, I have never felt so crippled before. Spiritually crippled and alone. I can't find a church here in Poland, and although I'm mixing with awesome people, they are not Christians. I will rely on bible reading and the sermons from church.

I'll update with a bit more details soon. Really drained and tired after a day out at Auschwitz.
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