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Recently, I was overwhelmed with the thought of how much I think I can go with my own strength. A part of me wants to be humble and seek, another wants to show the world that I can do with what I have. It was a hard battle, even though the truth is the way to go. You can never put darkness and light together, you have to choose one. That is the order created right from the very beginning, and it was good.

This time I managed to conquer, not with my own strength but with some help from above. Would I get attacked again? I would if I become complacent, if I take things for granted, if I refuse to listen and surrender fully. Self before God? No, I've learnt my lesson.

Falling into the pit even though you want to go around it. You fight the temptation with your own will, not with the strength from God because you refused to seek. Once you're in, there's only one way out. You can't hide from it. You need faith to bail you out, if not you'll continue to wade in mud and slowly fade away.

It's not that no one sees you, but rather you can't see them. Because the pit opening is all you see.