think 168km is easy? its not.

my actual cycling time is 6h 16min for the full 168km distance. and total time to complete from start to finish is around 8h. i took a one full hour break at yishun stadium, that was after 100km of cycling at 11am. and 7 other compulsory rest points which i topped up my bottle.

i want to thank Giant Bicycles for making such a wonderful OCR road bike, shimano for the gear and shoes, NTU for this wonderful event, olivia and peter(who was late again) and dutt. and of course GNC for the energy drink mix and the energy gel that tasted terrible.

one down, another one to go. OCBC Cycle Singapore 40km Challenge on 7th March 2010.
Flag Off at 6am, start/finish is at the F1 it building. expect road closures.

as the weekend draws near, so does the 168km bike rally (:
im still happily doing carbo starving before the carbo loading on saturday. its a way to trick your muscles to perform better during endurance events.

so here's the checkpoints(there's a slight change)!
1. Big Splash at ECP (start)
2. Labrador Park
3. Tuas
4. NTU
5. Kranji Dam
6. Woodlands
7. Yishun Stadium
8. Serangoon Stadium
9. Changi Beach Carpark
10. Big Splash at ECP (finish)

flag-off: 7am
expected cycling duration: 7 hours
estimated time of arrival at Big Splash (in dry weather): 3.30pm

its been a week since ah gong left us. i know that i cant handle my emotions when such things happen, especially when it comes so fast. im not prepared for it at all. since last sunday, its been harder for me to go to sleep at night without thinking of my grandpa. 7months from diagnosis, now he's gone. who can i talk to about my pain? who is willing to really listen to me? i've never lost someone so dear to me before. although its Chinese New Year already, no one in my family would be in the mood to celebrate it.

thanks all who have been offering your prayers, who were there when i needed you. i really appreciate it. i need to pick myself up from all these, learn to take care of my grandma and my family and the people around me. being able to wake up in the morning and live till the end of each day is a victory. thank God for that. love the people around you, for they love you too.

meanwhile, happy chinese new year. have a blessed and prosperous year ahead.

Better Man-Robbie Williams
Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Go easy on my conscience
'Cause it's not my fault
I know I've been taught
To take the blame

Rest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here
I'm in pain

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Once you've found that lover
You're homeward bound
Love is all around
Love is all around

I know some have fallen
On stony ground
But Love is all around

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doin' all I can
To be a better man

as im typing this entry, all i can say is that things are not going well. my grandpa watched me grow up and took care of me throughout the whole my 19 years. though he didnt talk much, i knew he is really concerned about how im doing.

just last weekend, things took a turn for the worst. i need to brace myself for the worst to come. the doctor's prediction yesterday wasnt good at all, in fact its very terrible. chinese new year may be different this year for my family, relatives and i. less than 2 weeks to go? thats really a short time.

i dont know what should i do, or rather what can i do now. i'll put all my faith in prayer, and visit him as much as i can. seeing someone you love so much, and loves you as much as you love him surrender to death and fading away every second is painful. it hurts real deep. the 168km challenge will be for him.

as you read this post, i hope you can join me in prayer. help me to pray for him, i'll really appreciate it. i want to celebrate chinese new year this year with him.