生老病死

当你读到，或听到“生老病死”这四个字的时候，心里是有怎样的感觉呢？最近我因肠胃感冒而病倒了两天。这两天让我有足够的时间去反省并思考这四个字的意义。因我曾患上了骨痛热症，以发起烧来就让我忐忑不安。心里知道若在患病，后果将会比第一次来得更加严重。

“死”只不过是人生的一部分。我们大家生来什么都没有，只有一身的罪。满满的，无可救药。信了耶稣还害怕死亡吗？口说不怕，心里倒是有点不安。老实说，“死”是件可怕的事情。我不知道我死的时候会是怎样的，也不晓得会有谁来吊丧。在葬礼上牧师会说什么呢？我活出了一个像基督的生活吗？即使我再不自在，在不安，在怕死，我在基督里得着了安慰。

因基督的死和复活我得着永生。虽然我们到了最终还是得面对死亡，但直这是人生中的一段旅程。我们都得经过生老病死的四个阶段。“死”一点也不简单。“永生”是用基督的血换来的。

生老病死。你的看法呢？

Power and Responsibility

Just a few days ago, I have added a new entry to my resume. For AIESEC in NUS, I am now the Finance Director in the Executive Board. Adding on to that are my captaincy status for the USP Badminton team and Evangelistic Events Secretary for Regenerate NUS. Collectively, they all mean that I have lots of power to do a lot of things. With my new role, I am as good as the CFO for AIESEC in NUS. The whole organisation can't really function without me, and I have the authority to make key decisions and steer the whole local committee.

But, with that comes huge responsibilities as well. First and foremost, I have to be responsible as a maturing Christian man. There are bound to be many decisions that I have to make, and I pray hard that I will make the godly decision all the time. Apart from that, I have to fulfil my role as a leader in various departments well. And the bible shall be my guide.

The new semester is going to be one full of new experiences. I'm excited.

Back home.

I'm finally back at home after a long stay away in Europe. It was a good time away I guess. The 2 months away was a trying period for my faith, for I was unable to find a Christian church, let alone a good one, that I could attend. I depended largely on online sermons to keep myself fed, along with the daily bible readings. As much as the online sermons are helpful, it is also important to remember what is a church about. It is about people. If you are alone and plugged in, listening to the same message preached halfway around the world, you are not a church. The fellowship with other Christians makes a church a church. That's the reason why I was rather upset about not being able to find a church in Poland.

I spent a good bulk of my time thinking and reflecting about certain things. I had been harsh with my words a while back and I fully understand that there is no way that I could take those hurtingly cold responses back anymore. All I knew then was that I had to put an end to what we were going through, and it is rather pointless to let it drag on. Looking back, was it worth it? Perhaps. I am happier now. I'm free and I know it.

That aside, it was good to be back in church and swing right back into Sunday school with the little kids. Yes, I'm back with little kids after spending 6 weeks with Polish kids. I'm glad to be back.