God gave me a purpose in life. How about you?

attributes of a leader.

what makes a good leader/commander?

I'm confused. but I'm glad that I fought for what should be right.
I think it's worth it.

God.

信。痛。乱。

the pencil and eraser story.

Pencil: I'm sorry
Eraser: For what? You didn't do anything wrong.
Pencil: I'm sorry cos you get hurt bcos of me. Whenever I made a mistake, you're always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller each time.
Eraser: That's true. But I don't really mind. You see, I was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one day, I know I'll be gone and you'll replace me with a new one, I'm actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad. :)


I found this conversation between the pencil and the eraser very inspirational. Parents are like the eraser whereas their children are the pencil. They're always there for their children, cleaning up their mistakes. Sometimes along the way... they get hurt, and become smaller (older, and eventually pass on). Though their children will eventually find someone new (spouse), but parents are still happy with what they do for their children, and will always hate seeing their precious ones worrying, or sad.


"All my life, I've been the pencil.. And it pains me to see the eraser that is my parents getting smaller and smaller each day. For I know that one day, all that I'm left with would be eraser shavings and memories of what I used to have..."

patience.

answers.

everyone needs an answer to almost everything in life. sometimes you get it after thinking it through, sometimes you'll need help from above, sometimes you don't even get one.

i'm thinking of applying to the uk universities again, after a long period of lost-interest. but does it really matter if my degree (just the degree) is from LSE/Oxford? what if it's just NUS? how much will it affect me? how much will my degree be worth? where will i stand? does it make me a cut above the rest?

the overseas experience seems kinda attractive to me. but what difference will it make?
what if i don't get in? do i deserve to be funded? if i take up a scholarship, is the 6-year bond worth it?

i doubt i can get answers to all my questions about going UK to pursue my degree. i'm still going to apply for it, i still have 8 months to go till the 2012 cycle. lots of time to think through. lots of research to be done.