I know a girl, she puts the colour inside of my world.

but she's just like a maze, where all of the walls continually change. and i've done all i can, to stand on her steps with my heart in my hands. too many corners in my mind, so much to do to set my heart right. it's taking so long i could be wrong, i could be ready, but if i take my heart's advice i should assume it's still unsteady. I am in repair.

watch the video or at least listen to the lyrics. the dude in there is called dave carroll, and this is the first part of three on his experience with united airlines and how they broke his expensive taylor guitar. i had a very very good laugh, and the tune is very catchy too. well it has like 4million plus views on youtube and its only added on the 9th this month.

tomorrow, im gonna miss out on lots of things in school. 4tutorials-math and physics and gp and econs, and some chemistry mock paper, and the team sajc thing. life this week is quite terrible so far. havent touched my guitar yet, no time. done abit of revision, and abit of math and abit of every other little things. i need the weekends terribly. i really hope i get the answer i wished for.

this is what friday nights should be like, spending time with friends having fun laughing and cooking. yes, COOKING DINNER! i usually love to take my time to do things, most things, but today was rushing like nuts. after discussing with melodie and olivia about whats for dinner, i cabbed home, showered, went to get baileys, cabbed to collect the 9kg package and train-ed to bishan to meet up with the 3peeps to do some shopping.

dinner, i think we need a menu for this.

Steamed Tofu with tomato, and some kind of green leaf that peter calls coriander. by olivia

Vegetable+Fishball+Fishcake+Button Mushroom+More Vegetable Soup. feels healthy. by melodie

Steamed Chicken with red dates and some other stuff that i usually see in my fridge but i dont know what it is. if its good, who cares. by me.

Some Greens with Enoki Mushroom and some cheap oyster sauce with soy-like taste. by oli and mel, i think.

Grilled Prawns with Mozarella Cheese. this is super good, some are raw but well, still good.

Grilled Fish with Terriyaki sauce, by olivia. sorry but im too bored to describe.

peter goh really sort of terrified us when he said we'll be cooking for his mum and sis. but it turns out that his mum is really friendly and kept praising us about the food. feels good? of course. the best part was still after dinner. went into peter's room, and charmaine and melodie was looking at marcus's facebook photos. yihan was sort of crazy about him. peter was having fun carressing my darling, and say the sound is orgasmic. some alcohol, i swear its only some. charmaine turned red and i heard they quite lost their mind after oli and i left. oh wait, and there's this super disgusting stuff i dont know what's that, it tastes super terrible and smells like the blue hand sanitizer. i think the latter should taste similar. oh well, im not gonna spend too much time posting. refer to melodie's blog if she even updates about this with the photos. goodnight, or morning. im dying already.

i'll update abit today. i'll start with yesterday.

lots of terrible stuff has been going on, here there and everywhere. im not going to talk about ocip, everyone knows why. from no stayove to no j2 involvement to no more camp (till further notice). whats next? no ocip this year? things are moving just too fast, i dont dare to guess. i'll just hide.

so, what else, im thinking of my bt2 results. nothing fantastic this time, i dont feel good about not seeing the A in my results. who does? BCD for h2 and DE for h1+gp. this adds up to only about 55 rankpoints. when jt walked into the class a while back with chem bt2 results, you could sense her disappointment/anger/whatever. third in class, nothing to be proud of. the 2 in front (cambodian and indon) are too far ahead, more than 10points in fact. dont know how much is that? its the difference between a h2 A and E. im gonna work harder, mug more or whatever, everyone's saying that. for me, i'll just keep trying. hunting season's opening real soon, lets get ready and fight this together.

in the midst of all these troubles, only some things in life can put the smile on my face. my gibson and soon the jm signature fender and probably you and above all else, ironically, more As-which i cant find. playing some metal is good sometimes, the noise gets right into your brain, so much that you forget everything and it doesnt matter if you dont sound like what you want to play. raining blood, master of puppets, leper messiah, disposable heroes. not forgetting the old guns. sweet child is still good to play, so is november rain and paradise city and knockin' on heavens door. too much of these spoils your brain, but since its once in a while, who cares!

i look forward to tomorrow. God puts Friday in the week for a reason. chill out time (:

i can give any reason that ocip is good. maybe its just a sign that we should be studying.

"Sounding of the clock that ticks, get used to it somehow"
-Metallica in Disposable Heroes

i really dont know how to express myself this time. no more j2 involvement in the ocip selection camp. how should i feel and what should i feel? i dont know, really. i everyone involved in the planning process in someway would feel the same too.

sometimes, im wondering what on earth is swee lee doing. if you still dont know what's going on, fyi, sweelee is the one and only official dealer for gibson products. so i happily called and asked them about the les paul studio raw power, thats some sick guitar that rolled out of the gibson factory in nashville just some months ago. online shops already have them in stock, and people have them in their homes. yet the staff at sweelee still ask me what's that model and what's the colour. please yo, dont lose your business just like this. its probabaly about 2k gone into someone else's pocket. i'll check back some other day, maybe with adam who knows his stuff better.

on a side note, its more common to underperform. so, i underperformed this time. 6weeks?

today is the 11th. i've got 18days to toughen up myself, get much fitter, stronger arms and whatever i can do. also, to make up my mind whether to choose the commando path or not. im still very uncertain. but im gonna do my best for the Vocational Assesment or VA at the Hendon Camp-thats the commando camp- on the 29th, getting in or not doesnt really matter.

you still know me best.

finally, end of the bt2 hunting season. i doubt the results will be good, i still have the energy to climb, but i dont have enough time. case study simply ate me up again this time round. time to give myself a good break till end of this week, and prepare for the prelims hunt that starts in about 6 weeks. have a good day!

i need to/must exercise more self control and discipline for the remaining 3days, or 2. i will restring my gibson with everly strings, they cost twice as much as the normal d'addario prosteels. hope its price relates to top notch quality. other than the long-life elixers, these are the 2nd most expensive guitar strings i've ever bought. but if its good, im gonna stick to this for good. when the jm strat comes, it will get the same stuff. but i dont really have time for guitar now. so this retarded looking domokun will sit in the guitar case too.

From Gibson

From Gibson

From Gibson

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me

You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

But you are not alone
'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms

I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says

That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

this is for you, by michael jackson (29th August 1958- 25th June 2009).
indeed, we are not alone.

70points? not this time. chem was good, math not so, physics is still the same. i never liked mcq. maybe a 60 for bt2.