i'll update abit today. i'll start with yesterday.

lots of terrible stuff has been going on, here there and everywhere. im not going to talk about ocip, everyone knows why. from no stayove to no j2 involvement to no more camp (till further notice). whats next? no ocip this year? things are moving just too fast, i dont dare to guess. i'll just hide.

so, what else, im thinking of my bt2 results. nothing fantastic this time, i dont feel good about not seeing the A in my results. who does? BCD for h2 and DE for h1+gp. this adds up to only about 55 rankpoints. when jt walked into the class a while back with chem bt2 results, you could sense her disappointment/anger/whatever. third in class, nothing to be proud of. the 2 in front (cambodian and indon) are too far ahead, more than 10points in fact. dont know how much is that? its the difference between a h2 A and E. im gonna work harder, mug more or whatever, everyone's saying that. for me, i'll just keep trying. hunting season's opening real soon, lets get ready and fight this together.

in the midst of all these troubles, only some things in life can put the smile on my face. my gibson and soon the jm signature fender and probably you and above all else, ironically, more As-which i cant find. playing some metal is good sometimes, the noise gets right into your brain, so much that you forget everything and it doesnt matter if you dont sound like what you want to play. raining blood, master of puppets, leper messiah, disposable heroes. not forgetting the old guns. sweet child is still good to play, so is november rain and paradise city and knockin' on heavens door. too much of these spoils your brain, but since its once in a while, who cares!

i look forward to tomorrow. God puts Friday in the week for a reason. chill out time (: