i don't know how to put it, but it's been a happy week. one more week in bslc, and gotta mental prep myself for 13 weeks of hell.

i'm treasuring my weekends much much more now as feb draws near. it's hard not to think about it. just gotta stay positive for now.

4th sept coming up and a short block leave. may the weeks to come be great as well! (:

I don't wanna miss a thing - Aerosmith

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
Far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
'Cause I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing

old song, but good lyrics. probably it's what part of me wants to say. here's an interesting cover by one of the wonders you'll find on youtube.

i'm starting to find the connection with God again. it's been a great week in search of Him (: sometimes it's good to take time and check back, make sure everything's in place before moving off. drifting away doesn't feel good at all. i think i'll get to serve in church again, which means more time with my guitar and more chords to play around with. hope all will be well.

anyway, this dude called yiruma is awesome. his pieces are so soothing. here's one for you to enjoy (:

Singapore's 45th.

a small piece of land one degree north of the equator, one flowing with milk and honey.

Singapore has been 'awesome' so far, i'm only 19 so there's still lots for me to learn about this tiny red dot being placed on the map, and i call it home.

the thought going overseas to study and stay there for good has always been lodged somewhere in my mind. sometimes this idea gets revived and i'll start thinking of how nice it would be if all were to come true, there's a heck load of choices out there. when i leave, i'll be leaving behind those that'll miss me, my loved ones and all. i guess i'll be missing my enemies as well. there's so much within this small land mass that i couldn't bear to leave behind for too long. no matter how much you say you hate Singapore, you don't love the country, i'm sure there's this part of you that'll be telling you that you still have some feelings for the nation and there are good memories too.

i'm very thankful that i've been given enough opportunities in life, and the very fact that i'm in Singapore. i'm afraid to walk on the streets in a city just 5hours by coach up north, the hectic lifestyle about 7 hours by flight to a city in east asia, or maybe the too laid-back environment on the other side of the globe. as the saying goes, 'the grass is always greener on the other side', what's outside always seem more appealing than what we have here. i do complain about the weather when it gets too hot, or when it rains too much, about the people, about the crowd, about foreigners looking for gold flooding into the country, and sometimes about everything and anything you can think of. to think of it, that's what i'll call uniquely singapore. no where else on this round thing in the milky way you can find a place like SIN-GA-PORE.

well, i might end up furthering my studies overseas, working overseas in the future or settling down overseas when i retire, but there's one place i will still call home. it's Singapore. the memories i have of the people will always stay with me, and that includes you (whoever you are that is reading this right now), the places and the Singapore experience (i don't care how you're gonna define this) i have. cliché as it may sound, i love Singapore.

happy 45th!

on a random note, i think that Kiss is awesome. the rock and roll tone of the 80s, not too noisy but definitely catchy.

Power of Prayer

managed to find time to attend the prayer meeting today. the last one i attended was months ago.

something pastor tang shared today struck me rather deep down. i've been in the church since june 2007, attending the saturday service most of the time. indeed, the numbers have not changed much. once in a while, we do get new people who would join us. and it's really once in a long while. having them to stay for months or years would be a total blessing and definitely by God's grace. as a member of the church, it would only make sense that i help spread the word and fill up the empty spaces by bringing new friends to church. have i been doing that? hardly.

i've been thanking God for the church. and never for His grace to fill up the empty spaces.

there's one thing i always hang on to: believe in the power of prayer.
'I love the Lord because he hears my voice and my prayer for mercy. Because He bends down to listen, I will pray as long as I have breath!' -Psalm 116:1-2
He's always there to give me an answer or some form of guidance when i'm in need. through these few recent years, things have been smooth sailing in general. power of prayer? i believe there's some help from up there that made all these possible and i asked for it.

i have faith in prayer, in God, in the bible. but, in a way, i still don't totally believe what i'm reading and listening to every saturday. do you still consider that my faith is strong? religion is some form of refuge for me when i need to hide from reality. it gives me time to think and reflect, then carry on with life. this time changed for the better of course.

i'll still pray for what's to come for me, for strength, for you, for my family and anything i need to pray for. not all roads are straight and flat, there's always bound to be potholes and uneven ground. life's full of ups and downs, it all boils down to how we deal with it, and make the best out of the situation we're in. cherish what we enjoy now, for we never know what will happen tomorrow.