as im typing this entry, all i can say is that things are not going well. my grandpa watched me grow up and took care of me throughout the whole my 19 years. though he didnt talk much, i knew he is really concerned about how im doing.

just last weekend, things took a turn for the worst. i need to brace myself for the worst to come. the doctor's prediction yesterday wasnt good at all, in fact its very terrible. chinese new year may be different this year for my family, relatives and i. less than 2 weeks to go? thats really a short time.

i dont know what should i do, or rather what can i do now. i'll put all my faith in prayer, and visit him as much as i can. seeing someone you love so much, and loves you as much as you love him surrender to death and fading away every second is painful. it hurts real deep. the 168km challenge will be for him.

as you read this post, i hope you can join me in prayer. help me to pray for him, i'll really appreciate it. i want to celebrate chinese new year this year with him.