Checkpoint.

I am halfway through my university education and today marks the start of the second half of it. I am back in Cinnamon College, but it feels different. There are plenty of new faces around, most unfamiliar, and the friend that I usually meet for breakfasts has gone away.

Little did I expect to start the semester having a sleepless night, it was not in the plan at all. I am indeed sad that things turned out this way, not the way I wanted. I was filled with lots of jealousy and loss, not knowing what I should do next. The pain will take some time to go away, and I will grow stronger out of it. It was helpful that I put things back into perspective, with God's help on being patient and loving, and take the 'me' out of the picture for a moment. Sometimes, submitting to God's plan and will is hard for us. We cry and we make lots of noise because we don't see how that can be good. It is through struggles like this that we learn that it is really not about us, but who God is. Trusting in his sovereign will does not mean emotionless, it is knowing who he is and being able to move on from our hurt, pain and loss. Even though things did not work out now, there's still plenty to look forward to. Friends are precious too, especially close ones, and worth the every effort to keep and encourage.

Third year in uni, it will be a crazy crazy year. I'll have my first taste of double specialisation and learn to take it with a mindset not to self-glorify, but to glorify God. I'll be a lot more involved in the campus ministries I am in, taking up various roles that God has placed me in. I will be meeting with people to read the bible and regularly over lunch as well. And community group bible studies as well. Pray, too, if God wills, a partner to fight this fight of faith with, but remembering that Christ is above that.

To a penultimate year. Who knows, Christ might come again in just a bit.