being truthful

Not too long ago, in fact just last week, I rushed through my application to be in the Executive Board in my CCA, to be the vice-president and head a team. I worked through the lengthy essays to answer some questions, a half-day assessment centre and an hour of interview. I received a call today to inform me that I wasn't selected. What a relief.

I signed up to be in the EB without knowing whether I could commit, and actually it was only yesterday that I realise I would not be able to. I do not want to be pushed to extreme of what I can handle and end up not having any space to breathe. There's so much that I want to do, and I have to know what is prudent.

I also started to think about why I did not get selected. Was it because of something I did during the assessment centre, or something I said during the interview? Not that I could think of any. What I am sure, and I'm very certain about this, is that I was just being myself during the 2 rounds of selection process. I did not hide the real me and put on a facade, or say things out of convenience just because it would be the easier way out. I know that I made the choice to remain truthful about everything, and whatever the outcome, it does not matter.

At least now I know that I'm not who they are looking for to fill the position, and I remained faithful to what I believe in.