Suffering

It's Good Friday today.

We don't have to wait till Good Friday to remember how much suffering Jesus, the Son of God, has gone through, and the reason for Him to have gone through so much humiliation and pain. He died for us-for our sins and for our death, so that we can be pure and have eternal life. Do we deserve this sacrifice? If you think that God and Jesus do not understand our suffering, please think again.

I like to ask God to search my heart, my inner desires first before I come before Him to ask for anything. If I cover up my heart, and do not allow God to know what am I thinking about even though He already knew, I would never be able to let the Holy Spirit fill me up. It's good to bear in mind that Jesus died for us even though we are all unworthy of it, so that we can make a conscious effort to try make up for our unworthiness. Would you want to disappoint God?

I read in a book by Nicky Gumbel which says that whoever that believes in God but does not know Jesus will also become holy and righteous and saved in the end by grace, because he has that least bit of faith that God actually exists. You might ask, so why should I accept Christ? Let me tell you this, if you do not know Christ, you won't be able to be assured of forgiveness and the abundant life He offers, both in this life and in the life to come. For Jesus is not only the way and the truth, He is also the life.

perfect: complete in all respects; without defect or omission; sound; flawless

This is how the Webster's Dictionary defines 'perfect'.

How would you define 'perfect'? What do you think is 'perfect'? Would you look into the mirror and say that the person whom you see is 'perfect'?

I have my flaws, my weaknesses, my imperfections. I admit that I'm not perfect. But I seek to make up for them, by putting trust in my God that He would help me out in places that I'm not good in. If I don't learn now, then when? It's also not only about God, not only about myself, but also the people around me. Are they kind enough to let me know where I need to improve on? Would they give me a chance to?

I have to say, the world is quite cruel. How many people out there actually do have so much patience to let you try and try and try again? They would rather put themselves before others. How are we supposed to learn and improve if the world is as such? Once you're slower, there you go, you're out of the game. The society rejects you and claims that you are inapt, and refuse you your chance to try. God has the patience. We all seek to be Christ-like, but we fail in the part when we say 'Yes, we will be patient. We will guide whoever that needs help.' How many would actually say that they will be patient for good, they will be always ready to guide. None.

Myself, I do have such problems as well. Praying about it helps. But, it takes time.

Day #43.

Thank God for the peace and stability in Singapore, thank God for the great leaders we have in the country.

有国才有家， 有家才有我。 可是，必须有神才能有一切。

祂

谁让黑夜变为白昼
谁让眼泪变为喜乐
是祂 创造天地的主
是祂 无始无终的主

谁让夜里星星闪亮
谁让春雨滋润大地
是祂 赐我生命的主
是祂 与我同行的主

一切患难中 你是我的安慰
洪水泛滥时 你是我的君王
苦楚虽多 但你的安慰更多
路虽漫长 但我知是谁牵着我

Now it's time for me to apply for my Business-Engin DDP

rest.

It has been a long week, one that was way too tiring and taxing, both physically and mentally. I can barely recall which time during the week that I had a proper rest. Meeting deadlines, timings, performing overnight duties, working without sufficient rest. I do feel like a machine sometimes, and I have to switch off all the emotions that I have in order to give 100%. I cannot say that I'm feeling frustrated, or feel emotional. Once I start thinking of those, I'm off track and I'm delaying everything that's queued behind, waiting for me to attend to them.

Now, my week isn't over yet. But I'm thankful that I still have half a weekend for myself. I'm also thankful that the rain came at the right time. I have some time for myself at this point, I should make use of it to sit back and let everything flow again.

Time to get my life back.

“Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name; you are mine.
2 When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.
3 For I am the LORD your God,
the Holy One of Israel, your Savior; "

-Isaiah 43:1-3

2 years ago, I got my dad to buy me a road bike. And only with a pair of Adidas running shoes, the event singlet and my shorts that has 'SAINTS' on it, I hit the roads and completed the 128km NTU Bike Rally.

Last year, the same bike, but with cycling shoes and locking pedals, tights and a pair of Oakley shades and GNC energy boosters, I completed 168km at the same event.

This year, nothing has changed. The same distance, same event, same equipment. Except that I'm going the distance for you.

For you I will.