disappointment.

From shoe and racket

it all came way too fast. and its gonna end real soon. there are some things im not keeping to myself anymore after today's loss to vjc.

1. i crack under pressure. the match against mi, we were 1-0 up. i need to seal the second point from my first doubles to boost the team morale, especially for the second singles. it was the same today. the opponents were not that tough at all, but i just cant bear the weight of the whole team. cant get focused enough in the game, and there goes another loss.

2. line judges. miss line judge, could you not look at your phone while sitting at that chair? you know how much it means if you made a wrong call? i had enough of the line judges, they were not paying attention at all. they wont know how much it means for a side to lose a point because of the bad call. irritating.

3. mr wang and mr ong. yes, you two did try to talk to us at intervals. but we do not need you as what you give are what we already are aware off. and the advice you give are somewhat demoralising. we need the coach, not you. so next time, just sit at the bench and wait.

4. jeremy. im sorry partner, but guess coach was right. i have too much pace, you had too little. maybe it was a mistake to pair us up in the first place, you couldnt keep up with my game. monday will be the last one, hope it will stay this way as i still enjoy this partnership though we may not win.

im tired. glad that there is this long weekend. lets go out sometime soon.heres a nice song.
Hanging By A Moment by Lifehouse

lost it today. hopes of 2nd round are almost gone.
i thought this may help me find out what really went so wrong today.

match analysis.(everything out of 10)
Confidence: 8
Service : 9
Accuracy : 8

Luck : 2
Opponents: 4
Fatigue : 3
Focus : 6

MI wasnt good at all. every game was very tight, but just lack that extra kick to win it. i felt like crying, the teachers felt disappointed, the team felt lost. though tjc also lost it, but thanks to my ex-teammates who tried to cheer me up. and that includes you too. gonna have some light training tomorrow, just hope for a better match against vjc.

lost it today to RI(JC)/RJC. 5-0. what a way to start the season.

coach was up to something ridiculous today, putting the singles together for doubles, putting me in 2nd singles, nigel 3rd, thuhan 1st and jeremy got to play his doubles without me. he kept saying that our advantage is that the team is balanced. we will see.

although it was quite a bad loss, i enjoyed the game today. i've got nothing to lose when im in the court, i know i could have done better and probably have won the rj opponent. i found his weakness early in the game, but just couldnt get everything in play and get going. 21-10. 21-8. myself to blame.

MI tomorrow. watching them play today against vjc somehow makes the team feel more confident. we should be able to overcome them easily, vjc wasnt as strong as expected. tpjc? needless to say. see you in the top 8.

its a sunday. the week coming to an end again, time passes by really fast. half a term's gone already, half more to go. blocktest 2 is coming right up, along with the 2 camps and national chemistry week, hope i can get through the audition. season starts tomorrow, and spa would be on the coming week and another on week 8. ocip publicity stuff too. im getting tired of these things, but do i have a choice? its gonna be over real soon, 7 more months to go. maybe this is not the right time to get certain things done although i would love to do it right now. i'll wait.

i need some time on my own. and happy birthday john.

had the last training in school today for some final fine tuning before the tough week ahead.

3 matchdays in the same week, monday-tuesday-thursday. its gonna be a challenge, but we will try our best to fight for a spot in the second round. all matches except for the rjc match are very crucial and would decide whether who will make it through, so if you have time please show some support. tampines sports hall, 2pm. in order, rjc-mi-vjc-tpjc.

i will have to get all the rest i can for this weekend, avoid all the weird stuff and drink plenty of water.

just one verse to keep me through.

Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own
understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths
straight.

tomorrow will be the second last training till the first match on monday. im getting all sorts of mixed feelings now, it wasnt like this and shouldnt be this way. we ain't got much time left. even if we are not going to make it past the first round, dont give up even without fighting, that makes you a loser. rest well, the week ahead will be a tough one.

sometimes in life, all you need is a hand to hold. but it is one that gives you assurance, confidence and you can feel the love from it.

love song for no one by john mayer. just love the way he talks about love before the song. you gotta love this song.

my idea of a band.

solo: guitar and vocals all by yourself. cant sing? forget about this
2 person: guitar&vocals+drums/guitar+vocals/guitar+bass&vocals. this sounds quite stupid.
3 piece band: guitar&vocals+bass+drums. sounds like mayer's trio.
4 piece band: lead guitar+rhythm guitar&vocals+drums+bass. feels good, but just not there.
5 piece band: lead guitar+rhythm guitar+singer+bass guitar+drums.
6 piece band: lead guitar+rhythm guitar+singer+bass guitar+keyboard.

the ultimate combination:
leadguitar+rhythmguitar+bassguitar+
leadsinger+3backgroundvocals+
drums+percussion+harmonica+keyboard+piano.