i've figured out.

a*star will be a fun place to work, but travelling there alone sucks my ez-link card dry.
i'll need to bring my own lunch if i want to be there for 3 months.
i need to save money like crazy.
because im only given $30+loads & heaps of exp per day.
i need to pay for my own travel expenses if the hk trip works out.
i need to pay for my own outings.
i need to sell off part of my guitar rig,
i only need a strat and les paul to be around. so the wah, distortion, chorus, power supply, pedalboard and the epiphone will all be leaving soon.
i need to train and gym for the 168km and ocbc 40km.
i need to run to build stamina.
i need to abstain from any form of OH. it kills my stamina
i need to get more sleep, so i wont fall sick again.
i need to think through before i do things.
i must think smart and work smart.
i need to find my way around.
i need to speak my mind.
i need you.
i need to find time for myself.
i need to walk around and take nice photos.
i need to calm myself down.
i need to stay happy and remain optimistic about what lies ahead.

IM IN A MESS, i think.